Hobbies include: Playing victim
We discover things about ourselves that are so glaring but we’re busy blaming every other person that we don’t see/feel what is right inside of us.
That’s me, always blaming others. Well that statement isn’t really true cos i see myself as a rational being, very objective and putting my environment as a base of my thought process.(see what i did there…)
So you see, its quite difficult saying i’m living in a bubble of nobility.
I think it depends on the sphere of my life we are looking at.. for instance: :LOVE…
I believe if you’re with someone, then all Darren Hayes sings about love should be ideal for how a relationship should be. I wouldn’t want to be in situation where i keep thinking u’re cheating on me or making me doubt myself.
Funny enough, that’s all i have had for awhile now. i’m attracted to “drama” so people say, hence the first statement; playing victim.
The question is thus; do I like the attention it brings complaining to people of how unhappy i am and unwilling to do anything about it? or am i truly unlucky when it comes to my selection process of partners?
I think i have been able to figure that a little.
I give people too much credit these days tbh, i use to never be disappointed when people acted in certain ways, as i grew, my heart opened up to start accepting bullshit(they say its for the best). I failed to put myself first, trying to live selflessly when it wasn’t necessary..at that time. i shoved objectivism to the side when ever love for a partner was involved. That continuous act made me weak and filled with self doubt and diminished my self worth. Nemo dat quod non habet( you cant give what you dont have). This made me naked to my core and i always feel i need someone to cloth me with their love.
That being said i don’t think i was unlucky, i think i need to put myself first, that would change the dynamics of my relationship quickly. Very quickly indeed, love should brew from within and extend to another, that’s how it is and that’s how it will be.
About the attention, it depends on who really…..that i shall leave out…